Manic Depression

Mania (source, wikipedia) is a severe medical condition characterized by extremely elevated mood, energy, and unusual thought patterns. There are several possible causes for mania, but it is most often associated with bipolar disorder, where episodes of mania may cyclically alternate with episodes of clinical depression. These cycles may relate to diurnal rhythms and environmental stressors. Mania varies in intensity, from mild mania (known as hypomania) to full-blown mania with psychotic features (hallucinations and delusions).

Manic patients may need to be hospitalized to protect themselves and others.

A mnemonic used to remember the symptoms of mania is DIGFAST: ^[4]

• D = Distractibility
• I = Indiscretion
• G = Grandiosity
• F = Flight of ideas
• A = Activity increased
• S = Sleep (decreased need for)
• T = Talkativeness (pressured speech)

Reading about it is something, seeing an actual case is scary.
God help all these patients and their families through manic episodes.

Inspiration

I am my worst enemy, learned the perfect defense from the hedge-hog
Basically someone gets too close, I envolop myself in a shell putting out spikes. I realize that, I do it on purpose. but omg when someone believes in you so much that they're willing to get hurt by the spikes just so they can help you out.

It is my duty, I had no other choice but to listen and act. My couzin has surpassed depression, and he's been trying to help me fight it. I struggled.

Depression is you, all your intellegence keeps you down. It is custom tailored to you, it is your equal, it is you.
Have you seen lord of the rings when smeegle talks to his alter ego? depression is pretty much the same, it is your other self. It is your censored self suppressing your full potential.

My god my spikes hurt, my couzin went through them and decided to get hurt just to pull me out of depression, just to show me a better alernative, a better life.

One thing I can tell all the depressed people out there. Depression is curable. And it is just worth it to cure it. Umm consider this, it is your duty as a human to be happy in this life. I know depressed people can't relate but it is important to recognize this.

I owe it to my couzin to fight my depression all out now, no excuses. I just didn't care, not caring is a part of depression that should be fought actively.

Screw the past, everyone we all did mistakes in our pasts, don't you see people around you are happy? You deserve to be happy as any of them. You are valueable, your sense of happiness is there, but its censored by your depression. Thats important to note. Everything revolves around each human and their happiness, this is whats engraved into our own beings.

Now, the real fight begins. I am seeking a psychologist's help. I'll keep you guys posted. But I have one thing for depressed people. I can't be there to motivate you. Motivate yourself and just fight it. It is a tough fight. But if you want to unlock your potential, you must do it. Else you'll be wasting your life. Thats not the right path for you nor for anyone.

Just like when the teacher asked the student: "WHAT DO YOU WANNA DO WITH YOUR LIFE?"

The answer simply was:

I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
I WANT TO ROCK (ROCK)
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)

TURN IT DOWN YOU SAY,
WELL ALL I GOT TO SAY TO YOU IS TIME AND TIME AGAIN I SAY, "NO!"NO! NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!
TELL ME NOT TO PLAY
WELL, ALL I GOT TO SAY TO YOU WHEN YOU TELL ME NOT TO PLAY,I SAY, "NO!"NO! NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!
SO, IF YOU ASK ME WHY I LIKE THE WAY I PLAY IT
THERE'S ONLY ONE THING I CAN SAY TO YOU

I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
I WANT TO ROCK (ROCK)
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)

THERE'S A FEELIN' THAT
I GET FROM NOTHIN' ELSE AND THERE AIN'T NOTHIN' IN THE WORLD THAT MAKES ME GO!GO! GO, GO, GO, GO, GO!
TURN THE POWER UP
I'VE WAITED FOR SO LONG SO I COULD HEAR MY FAVORITE SONG SO,LET'S GO!GO! GO, GO, GO, GO, GO!
WHEN IT'S LIKE THIS I FEEL THE MUSIC SHOOTIN' THROUGH ME
THERE'S NOTHIN' ELSE THAT I WOULD RATHER DO
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
I WANT TO ROCK (ROCK)
I WANNA ROCK! (ROCK)
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I WANNA ROCK

Source: Darklyrics.com Twisted Sister I wanna Rock

And we're gonna be rocking loud... rest assured

The fight

I've been talking to my couzin lately and we had a long conversation about happiness in life. Both of us were depressed for so long that we dont even know what it means to be happy
All my life I thought happiness was fiction, this world is all about pain and suffering.
However, influenced by our religion, god has ordered us to worship him and not forget to take our share from life.

This world, as god created it, is beautiful. It is our duty to worship god and be happy.

So depression update: The reason I started taking medication to fight depression was because my life almost got to a screeching halt. It got so bad that I basically gave up on everything. Not only that, I just can't find a value in anything. Can't enjoy anything I do. Everywhere I go whatever I do even if good happens to me its like w/e. But when bad things happen the thoughts get amplified to an insane degree.

So I started taking the medication and getting better, but I wasn't motivated to fight depression still. Medication alone gives you a tool to fight it, but its not nearly enough as you have to change your thought pattern and lifestyle. I wasn't interested in actualy fighting depression to improve my quality of life. All I wanted is some energy to do what I have to do. There is a better way to go about it, the natural urge in humans to pursue happiness.

In order to pursue happiness, depression can't just be left alone, it has to be fought with all you got. It has to be fought with full force. It has to be combated actively, and it should be a priority in life to be happy. There is a better option. Depressed people's quality of life is almost only 10% of their whole lives. Which means effectively you only live 7 full years if you live till 70. You have the option to live happily. And its plain better. Although you don't care when your depressed, you don't care about being happy. Its your right though, and it is your duty to be happy. Don't let any authority figure tell you otherwise they use depression and lowering the morale as means of control.

I thought these lyrics are appropriate for the topic

You've Got Another Thing Comin' Judas Priest

One life I'm gonna live it up
I'm takin' flight said I'll never get enough.
Stand tall I'm young and kinda proud
I'm on top as long as the music's loud.

If you think I'll sit around as the world goes by
You're thinkin' like a fool 'cause it's a case of do or die.
Out there is a fortune waitin' to be had
If you think I'll let it go you're mad
You've got another think comin'.

That's right here's where the talkin' ends
Well listen this night there'll be some action spent.
Drive hard I'm callin' all the shots
I got an ace card comin' down on the rocks.
If you think I'll sit around while you chip away my brain
Listen I ain't foolin' and you'd better think again.
Out there is a fortune waitin' to be had
If you think I'll let it go you're mad
You've got another think comin'.

In this world we're livin' in we have our share of sorrow
Answer now is don't give in aim for a new tomorrow.

Oh so hot no time to take a rest yeah
Act tough ain't room for second best.
Real strong got me some security
Hey I'm a big smash I'm goin' for infinity yeah.

Ain't it fun

This song has been stopping me everytime I ponder about it.
Comment on the contents of the song liberally

GUNS' N' ROSES
Ain't It Fun"

Ain't it fun when you're always on the run
Ain't it fun when your friends despise what you become
Ain't it fun when you get so high
Well... that you, you just can't come
Ain't it fun when you know that you gonna die young

It's such fun
Good fun
Such fun

Ain't it fun when you taking care of number one
Ain't it fun when you feel like you just gotta get a gun
Ain't it fun when you just can't seem to find your tounge
Cause you stuck it too deep into something that really stung

It's such fun, ah
Well, so good to me,
they spit right in my face
I didn't even feel it
It was such a disgrace
I punched my fist right through the glass
I didn't even feel it
It happened so fast

Such fun
Such fun
.........

Ain't it fun when you tell her she's just a cunt
Ain't it fun when you she splits you and leaves you on the bum
Well, ain't it fun when you've broken up every band that you've ever begun
Ain't it fun when you know that you're gonna die young

It's such fun